thesis monday..

Almost the whole day i worked on my thesis I woke up around 11am ate my lunch then played 2k9 like an hour after that i called bayandsl coz hindi pa rin nakakabitan ng internet ang hunnie ko so nagreklamo ako sa customer service matatagalan pa raw kc wala pa daw facilities sa area nila damn! then around 3 pm I started working on chapter 3-5 until 1:30 am.. pero may kulang pa.. i need the program by this week so i can paste the screen shots and discuss the prototype on chapter 3... But the rest is ok... and thanks to my girl she helped me check if my grammars are correct.. =) Nothing much this day except for the hassle lines of globe earlier around 9pm.. because hirap magtxt kanina hindi makapagsend.. i try also calling my girls phone and mines by using my landline pero out of reach.. But now everythings back to normal wala ng hassle hehe.. Hope tomorrow will be good!!! ;-) Goodtimes everyone!

Another Good Sunday

I woke up 945am to prepare for my class @ 12noon in Intramuros campus.. It was too hot but i need to sacrifice coz i must past this subject....Around 230pm class dismissed and I went home straight.. exatly 336pm I'm @ my crib already.. After that i take a nap bout an hour, then i picked up my girl @ lagro, then we attend the mass 630 pm @ goodsheperd in fairview..The Priest tribute his own composition for the late former President Cory Aquino..It's like he had a mini concert heheh, then we had dinner at parilla around timog.. The sisig was awesome!!!! and the chicken inasal was good ang big.. sulit na sulit affordable pa.. After all of that i feel much better now for my girl..little by little i absorb what we had just discuss last friday night and were great! hope it continues forever coz we love each other so much... And that's how my Sunday goes perfect yet simple...

Bring Back the Old School..

Yesterday August 8, 2009 we had our putok batok day tradition @ Gadia's palace... It is a simple gathering with friends.. What we do is we grilled porkchops a.k.a "liemputokbatok" that's how we called it, then we ate together, tell some updates about ourselves and what happen to our other barkadas,kulitan,gaguhan, tawanan, bringing back the highschool memories, name it we got it.. and the main event of the evening "inuman" drank some a-a-a-a-a-alcohol... coz that's how we get in the zone haha! It was fun because after my operation ngayon ko lang ulit sila nakasama.. namiss ko mga kaibigan ko, mga kulitan namin at gaguhan..we all laugh out loud for some old school stories hahaha..But even though hindi kami kumpleto at hindi ako uminom..kasi di pa pwede... ok lang atleast nagenjoy pa rin ako... =) and my girl experience it for the first time..nag-enjoy naman siya and were ok now hope magtuloytuloy na hehe...
crew: bry, ken, pao, jus, blas, phillip, meme, jie

Confused!?!!?

Isn't it right what i did?? Just when i got home a few minutes ago.. i realize that? Tama ba yung decision ko na ituloy pa rin ang samin???.. Na total misunderstanding lang ung nangyari itong mga nakaraan na araw?? Bigla kong nafeel na di kaya napilitan lang siya or naintindihan niya lang lahat ng mga pinag-usapan namin???..And were ok? Earlier around 10 pm we met @ mcdonalds and we talk... we discuss inch by inch of what happen to us.. every major explanation, what we feel, some misunderstanding, about our attitude.. everything!! After that parang may kulang di ko alam kung ano.... parang bitin ako sa info about her.. nalilito pa rin ako.. Magiintay na lang ba ako? or may iniitay ba ako?? pero sabi niya gusto niya ako na, pero matatagalan pa na maging officially kami it will take daw mga next year pa..wag daw ako msyado umasa sa lahat ng bagay coz ayaw niya ako masaktan..bigla ako nalito dun para bang laging nagrereplay sa utak ko yun na sinabi niya yun sa harap ko..siguro gusto niya lang na sobrang sure siya sa akin.. am i going to wait.. or this is just a test for me from God...na if you want her so much and love her so much you must earn it very hard.. i hope it is.... If this is a test from you God please guide me properly.. Or If this is not working i hope God give a sign to stop it.. I just don't want to get hurt again.. But life goes on marami pa akong dapat ayusin para sa sarili ko sana hindi itong samin ni a.k.a hun eh di maging masyadong mabigat para sakin.. I hope everything will be good sana wala lang tong iniisip ko and face the reality.... Goodtimes everyone!

August 6, 2009 One of the saddest part of my life..

Not so well for me and to my girl, she just broke up with me.. She told me that she realized that at the point of her life she don't want to be with someone else, she wants to live on her own, and masasaktan niya lang daw ako if papayag pa daw siyang andito ako sa tabi nya pero wala naman akong inaasahan, she also said that she wants to try living her life alone... she also stated that our relationship is really not working.. She wants me to support her decision and ayaw niya daw ako masama sa mga personal problems niya because baka daw sa huli magsisihan pa daw kmi dahil baka madamay pa daw ako.. And the most hurtful part is she said that is "love is not enough".. I'm so so so so sad, I cried hard, After all that we've been through since were back on each others track... I need her so much and I love her so much.. I want her to be part of my new life, after my operation and in my process of recovering myself physically and mentally, I'm changing to the new phillip that she wants and for the people around me... and yet she blew things off.. she let me go ='( Lahat ginagawa ko para umayos ang relationship namin at kung ano meron kami ngayon but suddenly she decide to cut it all... This couple of days were ok, happy kmi and suddenly I dont know what happen to her.. She choose to broke my heart again... Ang hirap lalo na pag ganito biglaan.. I expect that magiging ok na lahat para samin.. and pinapakita namin sa isa't isa na how much we love each other everyday.. pero dumating ang araw na to.. I hate it so much.. Di ko alam kung saan ako nagkulang sa kanya.. Lagi naman ako nandyan kapag kailangan niya ko, pag may problem, halos umiikot na ang mundo ko sakanya at ganun din sabi nya skin, kulang na lang mag live in na kami para di kmi magkahiwalay kasi sobrang namimis namin ang isa't isa maghiwalay lang kmi saglit.... haaaaaaaayyyy i will missed all that we had, our happy moments together our fights everything... and the difficult part is that how can i accept that wala na... ayaw na niya... I want her so bad pero parang wala nakong magagawa... nilatag ko nanaman lahat ng baraha ko.. kung baga na pusoy nanaman ako.. I love her so much and it hurts so much.. I cannot define what kind of pain I'm feeling right now.. I just love her badly... Hope everything will be ok... Maybe this is part of my life and the turning point of a new me..

August 5,2009 Another Historical Day in the Philippines.

Thousands lined the streets of Manila to bid farewell to former Philippine President Corazon Aquino.. Malacañang has declared a special holiday in commemoration of the late former President.. I just stayed home and watch it from TV to witness this historical day and i almost cried... I got so sad because we lost a great Filipino..Goodbye Madam Cory and Thank You So Much for giving us back our democracy...


Back to my personal life.. I just work some of my stuff while watching the cortege.. Earlier I listen some of my favorite Urbandub songs, research for my thesis, prepare my module for my class on Friday, and checks my personals accounts on the net. And that's it.. I wait for my girl to text me, until now no message, maybe that's it.. It's just sad because after all that we've been through to fix and be better on our relationship. She gave up that easily with a bullshit reason, and i don't know whats on her mind but i know to my self i didn't do anything to ruin what we have now..because this couple of days were good and happy, but she suddenly doing some stupid thing to act like that I don't know why???, sorry for my words but I don't know how to describe what she's doing to me... I don't know what to do..but I love her and I'm so confuse plus every time we had this problem I can't help to think of some trust issues before.. It's probably what happened in the past.. I know some people will agree to me even though you forgive that person you cannot forget what he/she do to you lalo na pag trust issues and that's very sensitive in any relationship.. And I'm always thinking what's my assurance that she will not do it again..??? am i going to wait to prove that? I just don't want to get hurt again that's all my point. I hope she understand. I hope.... Have a goodtimes everyone! ;)

Not so good... =(

Tuesday is not so good to me.. Because i cannot understand why my girl is acting like that, so weird.. she's acting like a brat.. when she doesn't get what her wants she's acting like a fool I'm sorry but i don't have any word to describe with that kind of attitude.... She even dont listen and understand my situation.. She better be thankful to me coz i love her but, until when this love goes? if she doesn't change her attitude..i cannot take it anymore... i don't know maybe i just understand her so much or its just love.. i don't know I am so confuse coz Im sick and tired when she's acting like that.. arrgggggghh!!! Anyways the whole day i fixed my computer i need to transfer the old hard disk to the new unit so i can start fixing my files for my thesis.. after that nothing much i do some research.. and when my brother came he bought a new xbox game fight night round4 it was awesome! hahaha! atleast i released some of my stress... hope everything will be fine i pray to god that please give signs and show me the correct path to become successful.. Goodtimes everyone!

Busy Monday..

Yesterday.. were so exhausted, my girl and i went to Quiapo to get her nbi clearance and it was so hot and too many people.. After that we went to Trinoma because we are craving for a good burger in town, so first we went to Icebergs because we always want to try the cuisine's there and accidentally we saw a burger in the menu, so we try it and order some salad.. it was not good the burger is just so ordinary it taste like a "cdo ulam burger" but thick patty hehe.. anyways in short we are not satisfy, then we decide to eat @ T.G.I Fridays.. hehe coz were so damn craving for a good burger... then we ordered friday's cheese burger.. and it was awesome!! highly recomended! hahaha! (sulit na sulit) also we ordered a fried mozzarella it was good.. After we ate my girl bought a top from kisses&co. and go to the grocery to buy some important stuff for my girl... =)

Sunday!!!!!!!

Sunday is an AWESOME day!!!! to me.. I attend my class..(yes i had my class earlier @ 12noon and no professor how about that huh!) So i planned to go home straight and rest a little bit..when i got home @ around 2 in the afternoon..i ate my lunch and play 2k9 then i had a nap about and hour and a half.. after that @ around 7pm i meet up with my girl attend the mass and had dinner @ mister kebab in Techno Hub ayala land(syala!) haha!! So to me this day is perfect yet simple... and i love that feeling.... Goodtimes everyone! =)

Tonight's gonna be a good night!

Tonight was good.. i talk to my girl and i tell her what i felt.. and it was jealousy.. yah i get jealous with this freakin' guy.. by the way you can't fool me asshole!!!! "diskarte ko rin yan dati tsong!" no one can interrupt with my girl! hehe! whatever it takes!.. anyways it was settled and we compromise each other and my girl understand what i felt..thanks hunnie!! oh FYI every time i feel something strange between us I'm always correct and for the nth time it was..but anyways enough of that atleast its ok now..Earlier this afternoon i went out to my school and it was my first class, it was great and I'm super focus, it is a great feeling and i cant wait to pass all of my remaining units... after my class i hangout with my college friends and brads.. it was fun "kulitan, asaran, gaguhan" and after that i visit my girl and gave her a "pasalubong", a piece of blueberry cheese cake from sbarro coz that's her fave and 1pack of marlboro black! awesome! and we smoke some sticks together haha!

Goodtimes everyone! have an AWESOME WEEKEND!!