Confused!?!!?

Isn't it right what i did?? Just when i got home a few minutes ago.. i realize that? Tama ba yung decision ko na ituloy pa rin ang samin???.. Na total misunderstanding lang ung nangyari itong mga nakaraan na araw?? Bigla kong nafeel na di kaya napilitan lang siya or naintindihan niya lang lahat ng mga pinag-usapan namin???..And were ok? Earlier around 10 pm we met @ mcdonalds and we talk... we discuss inch by inch of what happen to us.. every major explanation, what we feel, some misunderstanding, about our attitude.. everything!! After that parang may kulang di ko alam kung ano.... parang bitin ako sa info about her.. nalilito pa rin ako.. Magiintay na lang ba ako? or may iniitay ba ako?? pero sabi niya gusto niya ako na, pero matatagalan pa na maging officially kami it will take daw mga next year pa..wag daw ako msyado umasa sa lahat ng bagay coz ayaw niya ako masaktan..bigla ako nalito dun para bang laging nagrereplay sa utak ko yun na sinabi niya yun sa harap ko..siguro gusto niya lang na sobrang sure siya sa akin.. am i going to wait.. or this is just a test for me from God...na if you want her so much and love her so much you must earn it very hard.. i hope it is.... If this is a test from you God please guide me properly.. Or If this is not working i hope God give a sign to stop it.. I just don't want to get hurt again.. But life goes on marami pa akong dapat ayusin para sa sarili ko sana hindi itong samin ni a.k.a hun eh di maging masyadong mabigat para sakin.. I hope everything will be good sana wala lang tong iniisip ko and face the reality.... Goodtimes everyone!